I entered an intensive outpatient program where I was prescribed Clonazapam. It was rubbing off on my husband, and the guilt of that made everything feel so much worse. I was so scared, had many psychotic episodes. I knew it wasn't rational, but couldnt help bit feel that way when I simply wasn't sleeping.
I developed a belief that I had lost the ability to sleep. I developed such a fear of my anxiety driven insomnia, it was literally like a sort of PTSD situation. Mine started when I moved to a new state, no family, no friends, to me it was a traumatic event in my life and there would be many sleepless WEEKS. Please don't hesitate to ask any questions, I will do my best to answer and help where I can. we all have sleepless nights from time to time. The biggest thing I had to learn was that waking up, or not sleeping is ok. Speaking with a doctor and establishing a mental health plan cured my anxiety which caused my crippling insomnia. TLDR: Anxiety is a major contributor to Insomnia. Every night i sleep like a baby no problem. I love my job, I grow vegetables, kayak and hike and just love life in general. I am now on anti Anxiety pills (one a day) and my life is so much better I cannot even describe it. My main issue was that I stressed about how much I impacted other's lives. I did 5 consultations with therapist and the insomnia was getting less and less. He made me do mental health check then agreed to give me valium if I would agree to some counselling with a psychologist. Thank God he didn't give them to me easily. My life then changed the day I walked into my doctor and asked for sleeping pills. At it's peak I felt like my brain was wasting away. almost anything that emitted decibels was MY reason of not sleeping. Then it was the neighbour's dog, temperatures, trees brushing against the house. It started with my wife's movements in the bed, then it was the cats. I met my wife from Japan, moved to a beautiful idyllic country town in Victoria, Australia and life couldn't be better. I was so used to it that the drinking always drowned it out.įast forward to 33 year old healthy me who tries to find work/life balance and it was a disaster waiting to happen. Anxiety was my friend that I never knew I had. I then spent alot of years working in some of the best kitchens in France and competing internationally. I was brought up by an abusive father who gaslighted me and anyone who even so much as thought about mental illness in my life.
I had almost no concept of anxiety, it was just a word. I was diagnosed the day I walked into the doctor clinic begging for sleeping pills at 33. I spent two thirds of my life having anxiety attacks and being in a chronic state until was actually diagnosed. To avoid typing a very long difficult post, I will simply summarise into 2 parts. I felt like a robot, nothing brought joy to me, only the dream of sleep which felt like a fallacy. I was terrified, my world became black and white and I thought suicidal thoughts for first time in my life. It started with about 3 months of bad sleep and peaked with 5 days of not a single wink of sleep. About four years ago, at the age of 33 I suffered absolute, crippling insomnia. I have discovered over the years and also with myself that alot of the time it is caused by anxiety. Today I want to tell you how I cured my insomnia, in the hope that it could help even just one of you!Īs we all know there is a plethora of reasons that cause our insomnia. I'm very new to Reddit, however I have been reading this subreddit over the years, especially when I couldn't sleep.
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